So I begged my co-worked to have off today so I could spend the day with Ashley. I got up super early (around 6:30) and waited all morning for some kind of message or signal to call. I Just now (2:30pm) got in touch with her and she has alot of work today. I'm not mad, I'm not pissed, I'm honestly just really fucking upset. It's not fair that I really love this girl and every fucking time I want to see her she's busy. I wasted a chance to make $50.00 more on my next pay check because she's more important than money. If I knew I was only going to be able to see her for what... ten minutes then take her home, I wouldn't have bothered trying so hard to get someone to cover me.
I asked on Friday if she would want to hang out on Saturday and she said yes. We didn't hang out. I asked last night if she would like to hang out and now I'm pretty sure she can't. I get this vibe that she's avoiding me so if she'd going to break up with me she shouldn't be a bitch about it and do this. I'm fucking sick of her mom making her slave over stupid fucking chores and me not being able to see her because I am banned from the house. Fuck her. I'm sick of all of it and I'm literally wasting my life waiting around. I could have made money today, I could have made music, I could have had time to spend with my girlfriend. Instead I spent a total of 9 hours staring at a computer screen holding a phone and constantly refreshed facebook and gmail. When someone says "Well I will talk to you in the morning though, because I am really tired & wantz to sleep" I think I would expect to talk to them before 2pm.
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